stressin'

My mind is all over the place today!

I'm concerned because the child care center where I work had a surprise inspection last week. I failed miserably. There were many out of compliances. The only positive part was all the out of compliances were regarding employee and staff files, the condition of the building and the classrooms were all in compliance, so I have made progress with that :0) but...is that good enough? I'm concerned because I dont want to lose my job. When I first got this position, I was praying that I would find a place where I would be able to put forth my full potential and make a difference as I felt I was lacking that where I used to work. But now i'm feeling overwhelmed and like i'm not good enough for this! My supervisor has already threatened to shut the doors if I didnt begin to bring in more money, I feel I have raised the monthly income, but now this! Why am I not good enough to do this? UGH!!!! During these times I wish I was a stay at home mom so I didnt have the stresses of a working wife/mom! But then again the thought of not working makes me sad too lol. I know I can't have my cake and eat it too, although right now lemon pie as sour as it is seems all I can take.

Lets see, I need some positive stuff......
Wyatt went pee in the potty yesterday! and.....he is now in a big boy bed and he slept there ALL night last night, i must admit it was GREAT having the bed child-free!

I love blogging as I type I start to reflect on what i'm writing and sometimes answers come to me. Maybe I just need to prioritize, and let God take the reigns. (I would say wheel but with the snow coming reigns sound better) So, God, obviously number one. He needs to be who I aim to please. I need to obey Him. Next, I put my family. They are all healthy and great, well taken care of. Then there's me :0) and finally, work....I guess I need to stop putting work first. I dont want to spend my weekend involved in work when I can be making memories with my wonderful husband and child...right? right!

Its so difficult for me to pray and then trust that God's hand is in the mix so I no longer need to be concerned. I know that if its in His will then things will be okay...but the question is WHEN??? since its in His time. I've repeatedly asked him for a watch that tells His time, but i've yet to get one...guess its not TIME for that yet either!