My Church

I currently do not have a home church. I have been attending the same church for about 6-7 years now. One of the first things I've learned about a church, is that it's not a building. A church is the group of people who meet there. The followers of Christ who all come together to worship and praise the Lord. That's what a church is.

I have wanted to belong to that church for a few years now, but it seems I always allow something to get in the way. I don't like that I allow that to happen. I'm sure Satan does though. He knows exactly what buttons to push to get me to question whether or not i'm in the right place.

I have been praying about it, and when I do, I awake to feeling renewed, determined, that i'm right where he wants me to be, and I feel as though there are changes I'm supposed to be helping occur at this church. But then, I look at the opposition i'm facing and I decide that it's not my place. Who am I to just join a church and request changes! That's asinine!  Wouldn't it make sense to feel the spiritual needs that my family has, and seek out a church that can accommodate them? However, our spiritual needs change constantly! We can't just go jumping from church to church depending on what mood we're in!!!

Many family and friends know how many churches I have frequented. This is the only church where I really feel his presence. Where I can leave there feeling closer to Jesus, longing to spend time with Him. It's a great high.

I recently wrote about not wanting to be a seat warmer. Wanting to get up and take action and do more. Well, sadly, I haven't done anything in that aspect. In fact, I've been pushed back down the couple of times that I have tried. I'm still determined to get right back up though.

I have friends and family that pray daily. Please keep me in prayer that no matter how many times Satan trips me up, I will continue to get up and get closer to Jesus.